The urge

Posted by iKan2

For those of us with Crohns, we become overly sensitive to any feelings that might indicate a forthcoming bowel movement. At the first tinge of pressure, we need to instantly determine if we have to run for the bathroom, or whether we can wait for the urge to pass. And what may be nearly unnoticeable to a normal person, becomes an early warning system for us.

Sometimes we're not really sure what to expect when we feel a twinge in our bowels, and while, over time, you begin to learn the telltale differences, we can often be fooled. Furthermore, since we can't risk trying to discretely squeeze out a little gas because it could become a lot more messy than we bargained for, sometimes we head for the bathroom to finally end up passing some innocent gas. However, unlike that infamous bathroom graffiti:

Here I sit broken hearted
Thought I had to shit
but only farted
we are happy to be disappointed with some harmless gas. Although our hemorrhoids still take a beating from the constant wiping, it is a relief when we don't suffer through another intense bowel movement.

When we are with someone and we are feeling gassy and feel a sudden pressure, we immediately focus all our of our senses inward to tighten up our sphincter (LOL. I never thought I'd actually use that word in a sentence in a non-comical way). You probably wouldn't even be able to tell anything unusual was happening, unless you looked real close. We may grit our teeth, and maybe bite our lip until the pressure subsides. If the pressure becomes too much, we'll politely excuse ourself and head for the bathroom. And so it goes, sometimes a few times a day or maybe 10 or even twenty times in one day. Day after day; week after week.

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